After writing about rest earlier in the week, God nudged me to take things farther. Rest is important, but I must also connect with Him. Meditation, or even sitting still and doing nothing, is not my strong suit. But how can I expect God to speak to me if I am not listening?
The other night, my husband took the girls to play tennis for an hour. How did I spend that free time? Laundry. Cleaning the kitchen. I sat down for a few minutes of it, but most of the time I did housework. That is my problem. If I don’t have everything done before I rest, the guilt eats at me. Then an extended version of the song “All Who Are Thirsty” by Kutless came on Pandora.
Music speaks to me in a way nothing else does. If I am not listening to music, I am usually singing something that pops in my head. The song I was listening to and singing along to says “come Lord Jesus, come.” You know, if I want Jesus to come near to me, how will I know He is here if I am too busy? That is a scary question as I don’t want to miss Jesus’ words!
Even though I don’t do sitting and doing nothing well, I need to learn. My goal now is to just sit with my eyes closed for 5 minutes at a time twice a day. At this point, my mind tries to keep going a mile a minute, but I plan on calming it down. Over time, I will get better if I keep doing it. For now, I am just focused on breathing and pushing thoughts about my life out of my mind for 5 minutes.
I expect God to speak to me. For that to happen, I must listen. Are you listening?
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