I was stuck in my feelings. Anger. Sadness. Confusion. It wasn’t a roller coaster of good and bad, but all bad. I couldn’t shake these feelings by myself.
I needed help.
Praying wasn’t helping, because I couldn’t focus or even find the right words. The feelings were suffocating. Ever been there?
Finally, I turned to my Bible. I started at the beginning and found God. At times I skimmed the stories. I started a list of the times God came through.
God saved Noah and his family from the flood, just like He promised.
God gave Abraham and Sarah a son, just like He promised.
God brought Isaac and Rebekah together, in just the way they asked Him to make it clear.
God saw Leah’s pain when Jacob wanted her sister. He honored her when He saw she was unloved.
Our Creator comes through in different ways. Some times He makes a big promise and fulfills it in a bigger way. He is flashy and shows off. Everyone around us sees how powerful our God is.
Sometimes He allows us to test Him and shows us signs that He is there. He knows our weaknesses and that we are afraid of making the wrong choice. He shows up and shows off His listening skills.
Most of the time, I think he chooses to quietly sit next to us. He whispers in our ears words so soft that we have to be still to hear them. He writes us a love song in the events around us. God always sees us in our pain and sadness. He feels the sadness with us. Just because we feel alone in it doesn’t mean we are alone. We are not forgotten.
Genesis 29:31 says,”When the Lord saw that Leah was not loved, he enabled her to conceive, but Rachel remained childless.” He wasn’t picking sides, but He saw her in her grief. Rachel did eventually have children, but Leah needed to feel special right then.
God always comes through in whatever way we need. We may have those moments of doubt, but at the right time a promise is fulfilled, a path is made clear, or we are simply known.
Sometimes being known and loved is enough.
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